Every student of yoga, every person at some moment or another experiences doubt. Doubt can feel like a bomb shelter wall that you cannot blast through no matter how hard you try. Doubt is a stated obstacle on the spiritual path and when you feel it you are right on the verge of something big. You might find yourself doubting the method, the style, your teacher, your body, your mind, your home, your job, your everything. For me, doubt is always personal, the crippling self-doubt that is never so much about the method that i practice, but always intensely personal and therefore also totally rooted in my own ego. Ever since I met Guruji and Sharath in Mysore for the first time I have never doubted the efficacy of the Ashtanga Yoga method, that was one of Guruji's many gifts to me. But there have been many times both in practice and in my life that I have doubted myself.... I thought my arms were too short, my butt was too big, my thighs too thick, that I was too small, not the right shape, not pretty enough, not intelligent enough, that no one would want me, that there was no space for me, that I would fail, that I started yoga too late, that no matter how hard I tried I would not shift what felt like a thick brick wall standing before me. But now after 15 years of practice this is what I have to say to that brick wall of doubt that I beat my head up against for so long: you don't exist anywhere but in my mind, when I meet you next I will no longer fight because there is no need to fight, you will not break me because I bend and I do not break, I will rise up and meet you and through the grace of God I will walk straight through you with the fierce strength of peace and equanimity.