Hello my dear dear friends, I’m sure by know you have heard that, no,we are not making a Fieldtrip 2020. I know a lot of you were disappointed. And this may sound weird. But I’m really glad that you were. I’m proud that you were. Everyone who has come through FieldTrip’s doors knows that its a magic place. A place where we do some intense, muddy work. Emotionally, spiritually, professionally, creatively and all that... But behind the scenes of that work.. Is a whole lot of other work. Work that challenges our entire team at Fieldtrip, and especially me, the heart of the operation. At the time when all the talk surrounding Fieldtrip 2020 was swirling and an announcement had to be made, I didn’t have the words to really get at the heart of my explanation. But I owe that to all of you and wan’t you all to hear from my heart why this decision was the best one we could have made for the survival and the future of fieldtrip. The thing is that I want Fieldtrip to be that magical place for you all. No, I need it to be. Because when Fieldtrip was born, the dream of bringing together this community was never about ~networking~. It wasn’t about us all sitting around and talking about cameras. It was born out of my own personal spiritual practice. Because I have found that any of us who have spent time in spiritual exploration have found ourselves ensnared in a kind of guru/transcendent culture that relies on your quiet participation. Where you connect for the sake of connecting. And in some ways we owe all of our spiritualism to this, as it often is the first place we go to connect to ourselves. To unpack and overcome or suffering. But what we come into contact with is a lot of people who proclaim themselves teachers and gurus but who are really spiritually dead inside. In the words of my friend Jeff Brown, they are spiritual bypassers. These “gurus” are careless and irresponsible, by declaring that they themselves have passed the point of student in order to become teachers and ceasing to attend to their own needs. These are the people who might put you to sleep in a meditation class. Because they're not really connecting.